Something’s been on my mind and I’m gonna tell you what it is! Here goes:
Back in July, I wrote this post on hair acceptance. That was such a nice post. Where is the person who wrote that post??? b/c I surely am not feeling very accepting of my hair right now. What has changed? IDK. But that was July. This is November. Perhaps I am what you call a fickle naturalista? Bi-polar? Change my mind with the wind? lol. Whatever. Bottom line is, lately I’ve been having fond memories of the creamy crack. I’ve been looking longingly of the pictures of myself with smooth like butta hair ( see exhibit A and B above). Now, it’s not that I miss having the look of straight hair so much, (although, I like that look too) but I do miss the ease of waking up and not having to do too much work. I don’t have much time to spend on my hair and this has left me looking like booboo the fool on far more occasions than I would like.
As I mature, I feel like I should be able to maintain a certain level of style and that I should have a handle on my hair ( I don’t). I would like to be presentable AT LEAST half of the week. This is not the case in my mind. Sometimes I do not want frizzy poofy hair. Sometimes I want my twist out to last for more than 5 minutes. Sometimes I don’t feel like wrestling with SSK’s with scissors in both hands. LOL.
I have presented this dilemma to several close friends. One in particular immediately called me when she knew I was contemplating a texturizer or the creamy crack. “WHAT ABOUT YOUR BLOG “she said? I was like, what about it? smh. It’s tough y’all. I originally started this journey because I wanted healthier hair. I had no idea how much friggin time, money and effort would go into having healthy hair. I am wondering if a few extra healthy strands are really truly worth that time and effort. I know, as a natural hair blogger, this sounds like treason and tyranny. But, you know, sometimes you get tired, and trying to ‘wrestle’ ( in my case) with hair starts to become unappealing. What do you do then? Seriously. What to do? I would keep it in a puff or bun if I didn’t get a headache after a few hours of each. Braids=money down the drain. Keeping it straight takes too much time and heat. I am open for suggestions. Save me. I feel like I’m that much closer to the creammmmmmy dreamy…crack. LOL. Please, don’t arrest me. Maybe it’s my hormones? I’m also not looking for comments that say I need a lesson in self esteem and that I need to embrace who I am. I just need suggestions. Please, and thank you:-)
It WAS my hormones y’all HAAA! Crazy. I still get on the fence sometimes though and I could STILL use suggestions and ideas short of perming. Have you ever felt this way? What did/do you do?
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If she relaxes her hair I will come through this computer and pimp slap the b-jesus out of her.