Sweet Memories of Crack

Crack Head Days. lol

Something’s been on my mind and I’m gonna tell you what it is!Β Here goes:

Back in July, I wrote this post on hair acceptance. That was such a nice post. πŸ™‚ Where is the person who wrote that post??? b/c I surely am not feeling very accepting of my hair right now. What has changed? IDK. But that was July. This is November. Perhaps I am what you call a fickle naturalista? Bi-polar? Change my mind with the wind? lol. Whatever. Bottom line is, lately I’ve been having fond memories of the creamy crack. I’ve been looking longingly of the pictures of myself with smooth like butta hair ( see exhibit A and B above). Now, it’s not that I miss having the look of straight hair so much, (although, I like that look too) but I do miss the ease of waking up and not having to do too much work. I don’t have much time to spend on my hair and this has left me looking like booboo the fool on far more occasions than I would like.

As I mature, I feel like I should be able to maintain a certain level of style and that I should have a handle on my hair ( I don’t). I would like to be presentable AT LEAST half of the week. This is not the case in my mind. Sometimes I do not want frizzy poofy hair. Sometimes I want my twist out to last for more than 5 minutes. Sometimes I don’t feel like wrestling with SSK’s with scissors in both hands. LOL.

I have presented this dilemma to several close friends. One in particular immediately called me when she knew I was contemplating a texturizer or the creamy crack. “WHAT ABOUT YOUR BLOG “she said? I was like, what about it? smh. It’s tough y’all. I originally started this journey because I wanted healthier hair. I had no idea how much friggin time, money and effort would go into having healthy hair. I am wondering if a few extra healthy strands are really truly worth that time and effort. I know, as a natural hair blogger, this sounds like treason and tyranny. But, you know, sometimes you get tired, and trying to ‘wrestle’ ( in my case) with hair starts to become unappealing. What do you do then? Seriously. What to do? I would keep it in a puff or bun if I didn’t get a headache after a few hours of each. Braids=money down the drain. Keeping it straight takes too much time and heat. I am open for suggestions. Save me. I feel like I’m that much closer to the creammmmmmy dreamy…crack. LOL. Please, don’t arrest me. Maybe it’s my hormones? I’m also not looking for comments that say I need a lesson in self esteem and that I need to embrace who I am. I just need suggestions. Please, and thank you:-)

*UPDATE* It WAS my hormones y’all HAAA! Crazy. I still get on the fence sometimes though and I could STILL use suggestions and ideas short of perming. Have you ever felt this way? What did/do you do?


Check Out more of our girl M’s posts at her blog Hair and Other Stuff.

If she relaxes her hair I will come through this computer and pimp slap the b-jesus out of her.Β 

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22 thoughts on “Sweet Memories of Crack

  1. On the one hand, of course, it’s your hair and you can do what you want. On the other hand, as someone who’s always been biased in favor of curly/coily/kinky hair, I ask you: does the world need another head of straight hair, really? (Why no, I don’t miss relaxed hair AT. ALL.) On the third hand πŸ˜‰ it’s your hair and you can do what you want…

  2. I was feeling the same way a few months ago. I’ve never had a relaxer but for some reason I was really wanting one. I had to find ways to fall in love with my hair again. I went back to my earlier natural hair product junkie days, reading naturallycurly.com, checking out new blogs other than my usual CurlyNikki and others, reading more articles, and then I decided to do a protective styling challenge. I got tired of wearing my hair out everyday not knowing how it might turn out. I made an actual regimen for myself including Rhassoul healing clays and amla, stretching my hair with twist outs, and using cheaper but effective drug store products. My hair is so much healthier now and shiny. I love it again! I think the key is to switch it up. Start from scratch. Pretend it;s the first time all over again.

  3. I feel you M. I too, am reminiscing on my hair blowing in the wind after I press/hot iron it. (no smell though :d) I agree with Dana. I need to fall in love with my hair again also. I am going to try CurlFormers tomorrow night. I pray that it turns out like yours!!

  4. Great piece! I read the title and was like “Oh, wow! Damn!” this woman overcame a crack addiction, lolz. It took me a second!

  5. I am in the same boat. I have made 2 appointments to get my hair relaxed, and cancelled both, because I know I will regret it. My solution is to get a protective style sew in for now. I figure out of sight, out of mind….

    • My hair is in a protective style as I type this. I just can’t with the hair right now! LOL at 2 appointments though! The struggle is REAL Rachel!
      Let’s hang in there…

  6. COPPOLA KERATIN TREATMENT. you can keep your curls but they’ll be less frizzy (and possibly loosened) and it’ll be easier to straighten your hair if you want to. and it isn’t permanent.

  7. Yeah…I identify with this post. I know a big part of my struggle is not really knowing what to do with my hair and the other part is making the time to do the twist outs and all that. I do straighten my hair sometimes (with a blow dry/flat iron) because I just get frustrated. I’m glad I can do that just because it keeps me from going straight up perm and whenever i go curly again I’m in love, LOL

  8. Liz- I got that a few years back. Totally jacked up my hair. The straightening wasn’t supposed to be permanent but it was! I had to end up cutting my hair. I went from coils to barely there waves. Couldn’t wear it in any curly style at all. :-(. Believe me, I’ve tried so many different things on this here hair journey! Thanks though. πŸ™‚


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