A while back, I wrote a post about being terrified to fail and as a result giving up on my dreams. I won’t get into all the details again but I do recommend that you read it if you haven’t. But in summary, I’ve been a song and dance girl ever since grade school. I have a degree in musical theater yet I traded in auditioning to sling plates at a Jazz club and watch some folks half as talented as me live their (and my) dream. But they deserve it. They were courageous and I quit. So, I vowed to start auditioning again and my first one back at it, I booked the role.
The show is a really sweet show. It features timeless music written by Harold Arlen (who wrote The Wizard of Oz, Get Happy, That Old Black Magic) and I am honored that I get a chance to sing his music. It’s especially dope that I snagged, “Blues in the Night”, “Come Rain or Come Shine”, and “Stormy Weather” all to myself. You’ve got to realize that in no other existing show would I or any actress for that matter have the opportunity to sing all three of these classics. This role is just gold.
I am in a really good place right now. I feel alive and like I’m doing what I am supposed to be doing. For a while, I found myself going in and out of a slight depression and falling into a rut. I would come out of it when Shanti and I would be working on an event or project that I was proud of but after, (even if it was successful) I always felt unaccomplished and somewhat ashamed of myself. That’s how I knew I had to get myself together and get back on stage. It’s even sweeter now because I have a new appreciation for it. Before, it came so easy to me that I took it for granted and didn’t make it a priority. I didn’t fully respect the art and own my craft. But now, I am completely committed.
So, the transitioning phase was necessary. It was grueling and painful but necessary.
So, I have vowed in 2013 to get mine by any means necessary. I’m telling you yall. I am not playing. You thought I was serious in 2012? Nope. That was a fraction of what I can really do when I put my mind to it. And I’m not just talking about performing. I’m talking about the blog, future events, expanding the company, my physical and mental health and even my personal life. You know, I sought someone out the other day to give him MY number. If you know me, then you know that’s huge. So, from this point on, I’m fearless and I live by one of my favorite quotes from my favorite philosopher, Shanti Mayers.
“I ride around and I get it. You talk it. I live it.”
Tell us, What Are You Riding Around and Gettin This Year?